The important thing is that I know how to WITHDRAW the cash.

The important thing is that I know how to WITHDRAW the cash.

You know how in the movies when a character picks up a long lost friend or lover from the airport, and they spot them from afar and begin waving frantically and dramatically, with a wide, shit-eating grin on their face, because it’s just been so long and they’ve been so far away from each other, they can’t contain their enthusiasm?
That’s how Eric waves to me when I’m in bed and he’s on the couch.
We live in a studio.



Although I’m not sure why he thought he had any power in the beginning.
“We are two pees in a pod.”
— Eric, in his anniversary card to me.
Spelling mistake unintentional.
But noted.

Eric, bless his soul, offered to escort me on today’s walk/jog, as he could see, thanks to a current low-level bout with depression, I was struggling to get started.
Three minutes in…
Me <internally>: This fucking sucks. I hate that I can’t run. I hate that all I can get my body to do is this pathetic, sluggish, barely-trot.
Eric (bouncing along next to me, 100% genuine and full of enthusiasm): “Wait– isn’t this running?”
No.
Well-meaning friend, after reading about my current struggle with Depression :
“You’re depressed? But you have Eric now!”
Yeah, and you know what’s weird? Eric has me now, yet he STILL struggles with Diabetes!
Depression is a real illness.
And as with any real illness, love and support is undeniably helpful, but it is not a cure.
I think as soon as we stop thinking of Depression as something that can be fixed with a loving relationship, a fun night on the town, or a day in the sunshine, the sooner people will feel comfortable coming forward with their struggle and getting the actual help– the medical help– they need.
Let’s change the conversation.
And if you’re not sure how, start here.

Eric (using my computer): “What the hell have you been internet searching?”
Me: “What? Nothing. Why?”


“This is going to be our wedding song.”
— Eric, to me, while listening to Pearl Jam’s “[Can’t Find A] Better Man”
